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Mar 12Liked by Danielle Benvenuto

Hi Danielle, how lovely to receive your reply! Thanks for taking the time to write back. Yes, I'd be happy to chew on this more with you anytime! I think we all need the sisterly support!

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yes, indeed!

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Mar 10Liked by Danielle Benvenuto

Danielle, I absolutely love what you wrote and I can 1000% relate. I'm now 52 and on this side of the metamorphosis you described, I can tell you that I do not in fact think it is a mid life "crisis." I think it is a Midlife Mutha Fuckin' Bad Ass Woman Right of Passage. I think the rage is a powerful inner statement that screams No More, Thank You for all the ways we've been socialized as women to put up and shut up, people please, care take to our detriment, play small and be nice. Enough is enough. We can be kind but we can be strong and mighty in that at the same time. We owe it to ourselves and the world needs our powerful authenticity. If you feel so inclined to chat more, I'm here for you Sister. I do not know how I ended up receiving your mailings, but I love them. You ROCK!

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Hello Jenifer! Thanks for your thoughts and coining this: a "Midlife Mutha Fuckin' Bad Ass Woman Right of Passage." Love that so much, feeling the power and humor and everything in between in that. I wondered if we knew each other and about how you got on my list and discovered it was from the days I worked in NYC as psychotherapist (2004-2017 round abouts). I was giving talks on integrating eastern and western modalities. When I came to Berlin in 2017, I started a new life so to say, as something else was calling me (art, writing plus more than I am in the process of discovering). I took a look at your website, looks like you are doing wonderful and interesting work! I was reading something about mid-life the other day that did resonate and connects, I think, with what you are saying about being our bad ass selves. It said something like in mid-life, you start experiencing the gap more acutely between who you are and who you have been trying to be and that leaves one at first, in a kind of dark night of the soul--that dying of the former self, the part of the ego that has been holding our true selves prisoner can be bewildering and painful at first. I am still figuring it out, without figuring it out if you know what I mean. It feels like a mashup of stuff but above all, is that call to go and be even more deeply myself...even it she shows up awkward, scared and "ugly". Could be interesting to talk more about it together! Was thinking of late, would be a good topic also to write about more in depth as a way of discovering oneself which is what my writing has been doing when it's at its best.

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